I can't give up. I did once before and I didn't like it. I've talked about it on here sometime previously... I drifted away, but the good stuff kept me, and I'm not ageing out, and neither are my folks. They're both in their 70s, first-generation Trekkies, were part of the letter-writing campaign when they were in college. I'm second-generation, grew up with it on in reruns every week literally my entire life. Some episodes engages young me more than others, but more and more caught my interest as time went on, because developing neurostructure. The first episodes I bought on VHS were "A Piece of the Action", "Day of the Dove", "The Immunity Syndrome", and "Dagger of the Mind". Because by 10-11 I was dancing on the edge of Trekkiedom, myself, and had discovered the episodes as originally aired were longer than what was on in reruns, because of ad creep. My first ardent fandom was Star Wars, second was Transformers, and I hadn't met Warhammer yet, but Star Trek was like the girl who lived next door who was always just "there" until one day you realized she was a stone fox.
Star Trek IV was the one that did it. Not so much for the plot, which was enjoyable enough... But a combination of right age (12), right real-world connection (the filmmakers dedicated it to the
Challenger crew, and I was a space nut my whole conscious life -- still pissed I missed all the good stuff), and then, because of the way my brain works, the perfect juxtaposition of sound and visual to make something
click. The finale had done a good job of engaging me...
The music and its evoking of the TOS theme for the first time in any of the films, more ships and the lovely
Excelsior, the feels of Kirk getting his (an)
Enterprise back, all of the subliminal (at the time) impact of the reversed bridge color scheme, the brand-new Okudagrams replacing the ill-fitting displays and blinky-lights and switches controls, the presence of the TOS "bridge noise", the wry humor of the dialogue...
So I was primed, and then this bit of the end titles knocked me over the edge. Just watch about ten seconds from the start point:
I learned sometime in or after high school that I have a thing for good transitions in music. This one was okay, but just happened to be set over those two clips from the film. Something about that was a perfect storm and I was off the cliff into hardcore Trekkie-dom.
Then I saw my first ad for TNG the next summer:
Mind. Blown.
Shortly after, I got Star Trek IV on VHS (remember when it was almost a year before a film was available on home-video?), and it included this promo:
From then, in the fall of '87, on until sometime after Voyager's finale, Star Trek was effortless. I was writing (very bad, at first) fanfiction that evolved into campaigns for FASA's RPG and, later, pretty solid scripts), drawing (maybe one starship design in ten that I deemed worthy of developing further, but my big four I stand by to this day), sewing (first solo full-on project was the TNG first-season uniform starting late in season one and going into the summer -- the correct jumbo spandex -- dull side out -- invisible zipper, piping, commbadge from Lincoln Enterprises, etc.), and model-building (Star Wars took a back seat for a few years) Star Trek. It was all effortless. By the end of TNG, the internet was
juuuuuust beginning to be a thing. First in AOL chatrooms, and then on USEnet (rec.arts.startrek.tech), I delved ever deeper. Discussions about the wreck-bashes at Wolf 359 and Qualor II, determining plausible science and theoretical models for things, this bit of behind-the-scenes minutia or that bit of clarification on '70s lore or these pictures and insights from staff (Rick Sternbach, Michael Okuda, and David Stipe were frequently on there, and much discussion was had -- I ended up with Sternbach and Okuda's e-mail addies and phone numbers and tried very hard not to abuse that privilege).
So yeah, I felt Star Trek on every one of my nerve endings and, like a spider in her web, I could feel one or two, and then more and more strand vibrating with "off-ness" as Voyager and Enterprise strayed further and further from "good Trek". But I found solace in the DS9 "Relaunch" novels (starting, actually, with the last numbered novel, "A Stitch In Time", by and about Garak -- no, seriously, Andrew Robinson wrote it and 1) he's good and 2) he had had seven years immersed in the character and conversations about him with the writers and producers and gets him better than anyone and it shows). Through that there were the models and the uniforms and the props and the research and the evolving writing/scripts and starship designs. I am not easily dissuaded.
After Trek09, I did not read, draw, or do anything Star Trek for almost five years, it soured me that much. I had to fight my way back and re-engage with the good stuff from the before-time. And, since then, I have rekindled all my delving into the TOS, TNG, DS9, and early Voyager stuff that is as much a part of my mental make-up as my school years.
And that last is one of the most dismaying things... I have talked to several first-generation Trekkies, who grew up with it, who stuck with it through TNG and beyond, who love it and know the universe... who also love JJ-Trek, Discovery, and Picard, and I
just do not understand HOW. It's no slight on them -- it just baffles me. They are not objectively good storytelling, they are not subjectively good Star Trek, they break the lore and the spirit of Trek left and right...
How can people who get Star Trek think these are good Star Trek?



I have a friend (young-ish -- just over 30) whose introduction to Star Trek was the '09 film. Her mom had watched it when she was younger, but she didn't really notice or pay attention to it. She loves the JJ trilogy, and looked for more, was surprised to discover just how much there was, landed on TNG next, and seriously
loves that. Way more. We've done some curated delves back into TOS, and she's appreciating it on both the superficial and contextual levels, even if she can recognize the generation gap between '60s production standards and modern expectations. But she and her mom also like Disco and Picard. We agree to disagree. *lol* I don't understand it.
I cannot, not while I draw breath, give up entirely. I keep hoping maybe Rod will find a way to take the intellectual property rights back and bring aboard producers and writers who get Trek, and we can maybe put this extended moment of anti-Trek behind us. Maybe even some "what might have been" efforts -- taking the better ideas from Enterprise, the JJ films, Discovery, Picard, Lower Decks, Short Treks... and tweaking them into
good Trek, with aspirational characters, internal continuity, and solid science.
Maybe.
We'll see.
Until then, I have my ship models; my
Majestic class deck plans; my rework of the TOS and TMP
Enterprises (and every design derived from them),
Excelsior, and
Enterprise-D; my essays and scripts, which I'm agonizingly reconstructing from memory after hard drive failure; and a whole new generation of uniforms and props, now that there's more reference and inside info, and my skills have improved (and I won't outgrow the shoulders this time *headdesk*). Need to go through the novels again, too, and figure out what to keep.