I just want to post a few pictures of the finished pistols say a few words since everyone finally has them and I'm in at least a calmer head space to talk for just a moment.
I have written letters to you all but i also want to publicly apologize to you all. For the stress and worry of what happened to the run and just not being able to provide to you all with any sort of answers.
This has been a very difficult period for me. I hit some extreme lows, and just couldn't deal anymore. You all deserved more but i honestly just couldn't face this anymore.
I want to thank my fiance for helping me get back to where i need to be, for giving me the motivation to push forward to finish and for helping you all get informed and put all this back on track to its eventual conclusion. She did so much and stood by me through even more. Thank you hunny.
To all of you who invested your money and time into me, Thank you all so so much. The weight of expectation wasn't lost on me and although a few of you were very concerned (and rightly so) you all showed a great deal of understanding given the circumstances.
While the end of all this is bittersweet, the biggest thing I'm proud of is that i managed to finish these to the a standard even i was blown away by. These pistols nearly broke me, but they will stand up there as one of the most important projects I've ever undertaken.
To close, I owe you all so much more than i can put into words. If i can say anything its that i have learned a lot, from the work, the mistakes I've made and how i go about things. If anyone is going through a rough patch, hit a point in your lives that you feel like you just can't go on anymore, talk to someone, either a family member of a professional. As alone as you may feel at your darkest, you are loved, you are valued and there are people who want to help.
Tomorrow is another day.
Thank you all.
- Jay
