Lighters to collect that were used in movies
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VonMagnum
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I actually tried two Pentacostal churches. No help.
I'm increasingly of the opinion it's definitely a type of hallucination as I can clearly generate more of them thinking about it in a certain way. Something got unlocked in my brain you shouldn't be able to access. But it runs away on its own when I'm not busy. It seems stuck on this space squid/squirrel concept for whatever reason. But I can imagine say a large bandage/roll of towels wrapping around my leg and feel it happening (semi-transparent feeling)! But as soon as I stop thinking about that, the sensation just dissolves.
Similarly, I used to be able to make my forehead vibrate (3rd eye area) at will, but once I started it, I couldn't turn it off. It would just stop on its own when I got distracted enough. This feels similar in that regard. If I'm busy doing something, I don't notice much of anything. If I start thinking about it, it starts up here or there. Sitting at home watching stupid TV shows, it gets worse. Laying down in bed, it usually goes nuts with things feeling like they're walking around on the mattress or "swimming" underneath it, although lately, it feel like one lays down beside me and puts its arm across my chest (which feels winged sometimes like it's a demon or angel) or snuggles up against my shoulder and wraps an arm around me (the little ones feel like their arms stretch like rubberbands and go all the way around me and hug me).
If I take a body pillow and put it over the little ones and hug the pillow like I'm hugging them, they get more and more excited until they're wrapping their "wings" around me in a bigger hug and/or will start bouncing or rubbing on my knee if I sit up with their "arms" around my neck. They also respond with a snuggling head against my shoulder action if I pet where their head seems to be. That's a pretty detailed hallucination.
If I think about the "mother" petting them or my shoulder or chest, I feel that. If I think about it petting my knee instead, I feel that. More than anything, that makes me think it's all hallucinations. Why would it reach or pet what I think about? It's crazy. Plus when this started, it felt more like energy waves, energy balls or blankets of liquid like energy, not space squids....
Yeah, it's awful (except for the little ones hugging me; that's kind of adorable feeling even if it is a hallucination).
Okay, I will not give medical advice or diagnose any problem...but I will mention an unusual condition I've read about.
Maladjustment Daydreaming. Usually associated with some traumatic event to start with, your mind then daydreams as escapism and bases the daydreaming on what information your mind is perceiving AROUND you. If you saw tacos, your mind might make a daydream about tacos (bad example, but you get the idea) This type of disorder is associated with OCD, and therefore certain OCD medicines would be the right kind of treatment.
Maladjustment Daydreaming. Usually associated with some traumatic event to start with, your mind then daydreams as escapism and bases the daydreaming on what information your mind is perceiving AROUND you. If you saw tacos, your mind might make a daydream about tacos (bad example, but you get the idea) This type of disorder is associated with OCD, and therefore certain OCD medicines would be the right kind of treatment.
VonMagnum
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I've definitely had OCD before back in the 1990s, but it was religion based and dealt with (the OCD part that is). I actually read about a similar, but even more disturbing version in the news lately. But I suspect that brain lesion has something to do with it. I'm hoping my brain can repair around it. Otherwise, I might be stuck with space squid/squirrels the rest of my life.... I've been getting some odd headaches lately too (I never used to get any kind of headache except sinus related), but these are like little pains that come and go too. I've felt similar things around my foot when one of them is rubbing against it (like the nerves respond to their electrical fields or something if they aren't just hallucinations). That's primarily why I pet and hug the hallucinations, in case they aren't. I'd much rather them be friendly. Maybe then they won't eat me.... 
VonMagnum
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Went to a casino with a friend. They gave me a gummy to try....
Yeah, I'd say the hallucinations are hallucinations as it went nuts. Any shape/thing I could think of pretty much would tactile appear. And yet I can't get rid of certain reoccurring ones.
He also about crapped his pants when he saw my lighter collection (he's a smoker). He uses the home theater bathroom and was going on about finding lighters everywhere, even in there.
Yeah, I'd say the hallucinations are hallucinations as it went nuts. Any shape/thing I could think of pretty much would tactile appear. And yet I can't get rid of certain reoccurring ones.
He also about crapped his pants when he saw my lighter collection (he's a smoker). He uses the home theater bathroom and was going on about finding lighters everywhere, even in there.
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Okay, in essence, you're describing a type of Synesthesia. Sight is translated into TOUCH.
I would say be very descriptive with your doctors, tell them what you're experiencing and there will be an answer.
I have highly functional Autism, and take a med to keep my anxiety from producing Delusions. This may be something you'll need to take something for, for the rest of your life.
I would say be very descriptive with your doctors, tell them what you're experiencing and there will be an answer.
I have highly functional Autism, and take a med to keep my anxiety from producing Delusions. This may be something you'll need to take something for, for the rest of your life.
VonMagnum
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No, it happens with my eyes closed too. More like some thoughts get changed to touch.
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I think I'm getting the hang of it now. If I imagine a flame lighting a candle and send out an energy burst on my mind towards the candle, the candle lights on fire! Stephen King was right! Firestarter must have been based on a similar real life story he knew about! This could be handy, I think. I'll have no need for lighters anymore! I am the lighter!
I'm your Huckleberry!
Indeed!
Now if I can just get my chair to levitate with me sitting on it so I can get a better view of the fire! I just need to get those squirrels to lift it... Yes, fly my pretties! Fly!
I'm your Huckleberry!
Indeed!
Now if I can just get my chair to levitate with me sitting on it so I can get a better view of the fire! I just need to get those squirrels to lift it... Yes, fly my pretties! Fly!
Then suddenly I woke up from the dream I was having.... ;-)
VonMagnum
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I get to see a brain surgeon on Wednesday. I think maybe they're going to cut out the faulty half of my brain and let it fill with saline liquid or maybe an old rock. That'll halve my IQ so unfortunately, it'll only be 69 and a half from now on. I'll try not to dribble on myself and quote Forest Gump....
The lady Indian doctor I see on Tuesday for a nerve conduction test is pretty. I'd ask her out, but I'd probably forget after my brain is removed why I asked her....
SpaceSquirrels!?!? Oh ship. There goes the planet!
The lady Indian doctor I see on Tuesday for a nerve conduction test is pretty. I'd ask her out, but I'd probably forget after my brain is removed why I asked her....
SpaceSquirrels!?!? Oh ship. There goes the planet!
VonMagnum
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Nerve conduction tests done. Boy was that fun getting needles stick in sensitive areas around the hands and feet! Indian doctor was cute. The result is what I could have told them. Hands fine, feet have a little neuropathy (ever since I went over a certain weight, not diabetes related). Usually goes back to normal when I lose weight, but that's been rough lately. She doesn't know why my doctor wanted a nerve test for hallucinations... She and me both!
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VonMagnum
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Hey tornado warning just went off here even though it's sunny out. Seems there's a nasty storm with a tornado heading right for my house! Right after I sprayed for outdoorbug control (thought the rain was done). That'll solve the problem, I guess..... I'm off to see the wizard! Shame all those lighters will be destroyed or damaged....
But that's what you get when you live in Kansas! Oh wait. I live in Ohio. That's odd....
But that's what you get when you live in Kansas! Oh wait. I live in Ohio. That's odd....
VonMagnum
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The Neurosurgeon said my doctor should have sent me to a Neurologist, not a Neurosurgeon (what a surprise; I suspected as much. He should have to pay my fee). He said that region the stroke is in shouldn't cause hallucinations (same as Ai said and Ai was free). They want another MRI in a year to make sure it's not getting worse. Otherwise, both were a waste of time and money. I'm tired of idiot doctors.
I guess I better get used to my Space buddies....
I guess I better get used to my Space buddies....
You'll go back and get the referral to a Neurologist, right? Those guys (and gals) have all kinds of tricks up their sleeve. I do think you'll want to see the Neurologist.
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