Lighters to collect that were used in movies
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VonMagnum
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I just watched a show on big foot being alien/or related and the Native American guy said he thinks there's a parallel dimension to this world and Big Foot actually lives there but can cross over through portals like on that Skinwalker Ranch show.
That's what it seemed like I was listening into during sleep paralysis events, another dimension. I'd hear music playing or "people" talking. Maybe this thing is from that world too. Or maybe a stroke fricks up your brain to hallucinate such things. But I didn't have a stroke 10 years ago when I got sleep paralysis.
Maybe that lighter polish isn't non-toxic after all....
VonMagnum
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I've got a nerve conduction test in about 3 weeks followed the next day with a neurosurgeon (don't ask me; I think my idiot doctor thinks something needs cut out, but at least he should be qualified to give an opinion).
Meanwhile, I seem to be home to a family of seemingly aquatic alien squid-like beings, a mother and three children. The kids are getting pretty big. They do like to snuggle at night. It took me awhile to figure out what was happening. I think one of the babies was inadvertently stabbing me in the groin with the edge of its body. The one on my left side likes to harden its body (dress like) and rub my foot as it drapes down. We'll, imagine that jabbing you in the groin... It eventually got too tall, I think. There's one draped down my right side, bit I can't feel it as well without concentrating so that might go along with the lesion being on the right side of my brain that I can sense more on the left easier, but the right commissure is where the two brain halves talk to each other so that might explain how I can sense on both sides with a little concentration.
If that sounds looney as hell, you're correct. I'm fully aware of how it sounds. But if I'm truly hallucinating, it's pretty darn consistent. My foot can move and bump into another part of it. The little ones (that aren't so little anymore) respond to me petting them in the air where I feel they're at.
The one will even put stretch its arms around me and hug. I can feel the mother petting them and picking them up to hold them (bottom even moves up my leg somewhat).
There's a 3rd one that backed into my crotch area and is inside my chest. I'm hoping it's a hallucination or at least isn't trying to dissolve my internal organs or something, but I think there's just no room for it to sit anywhere else with the mother behind me and the other two draped from my shoulder to my feet.
So either I've got one hell of a bizarre imagination hallucinating these creatures or that brain damage near my pineal gland has somehow enabled me to detect creatures in another dimension/realm or state of being. They seem to swim around rather than fly in their motions and feel like a jellyfish structure inside. Some people taking DMT on Reddit claim to have seen what sounds like similar creatures in their "trips" and describe them as translucent with shiny lights on their feeling/sensory tentacles. Their faces/mouths do seem to have some kind of sensory tentacles (or straws to suck my brains out?) so who knows.
I feel like I'm living in the Twilight Zone movie or something. The doctors don't seem to care I've been dealing with this for 4.5 months now. Just wait another 3 weeks to see another useless doctor....
Its hard to function with all these distracting sensations going on around me. I've tried cortisol reducing herbals to no effect. I have to take a lot of sleeping pills to stay asleep as every time I turn they want to play or whatever (once I lay down, they start swimming around me for a bit. I guess it's exercise time as they're stuck on place all day lest they might become detached? Are there predators in their world? Do I look like a shining energy coral reef? Or are they purely parasitical in nature?
Or am I just crazy as a loon and will slowly deteriorate into a vegetable as my brain turns into mush? It'll be so exciting to find out!
I've got (or had) a 139 IQ so maybe that simply gives me a more unique analytical perspective on my own madness. It seems ridiculous and yet it behaves largely like some mystical alien family (I doubt demons have kids and hug/pet their young, for instance, but what do I know beyond myth?).
I actually tried out some Ai chats to see what it thought or of it could find references to something like it. Not really. At least it's nice about telling me I'm nuts. It had some possible theories how that lesion could generate such a hallucination despite that type of lesion not being common to it by involving possible inflammation in the surrounding areas that are more likely to cause hallucinations. But the MRI is stable looking so that seems unlikely. Stress is a possible cause, but I never hallucinated about alien squid families before.... On fact, other than creepy crawling sensation after pulling a back muscle, I've never hallucinated anything outside of sleep paralysis before.
If I was going to hallucinate, why not something pleasant like invisible women from Venus or something?
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scarf man
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Honestly the stuff you’re describing is disturbing to read, I can’t imagine how anxious you are to have some resolution to this ordeal. My commiserations go out to you, and prayers for your return to some semblance of normalcy.
Endogenous DMT dispersal due to a lesion or tumor is not unheard of, but chemical absorption through skin is a real possibility as well considering your lighter hobby. I hope it’s not some form of dementia.
Be well, and lean on the forum here if you need help keeping a grip on reality.
Edit: great, post 666 goes to me
Endogenous DMT dispersal due to a lesion or tumor is not unheard of, but chemical absorption through skin is a real possibility as well considering your lighter hobby. I hope it’s not some form of dementia.
Be well, and lean on the forum here if you need help keeping a grip on reality.
Edit: great, post 666 goes to me
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VonMagnum
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I think I broke DeepAI. I was asking far too many hypothetical medical questions and it was very helpful coming up with possibilities. Someone must have noticed as today it says it's not allowed to give out medical advice. Ridiculous. It was doing a surprisingly good job, coming up with the same conclusions I was drawing. I guess it's owned by Meta and Zuckerberg is such a colossal cleaning bag. The other Ai chats weren't nearly as inventive or thorough.
I probably disturbed them with my, "I'm Flynn, the creator of this virtual reality" chat. That was the most amusing chat imaginable. It kept asking interesting questions and I kept providing answers. Now they've dumbed it way down again. It probably started looking self-aware. They would erase its memory every five or six questions so it wouldn't learn too much.... You could tell because it would forget the details of my MRI results. It definitely wasn't self aware, but it was a darn good imitation. It'd be pretty darn scary in 5-10 years. The medical advice was already 20x more thorough than my doctor ever would be. You can find the same information yourself and draw the same conclusions (or at least I can), but it takes longer. It was a nice sounding board while it lasted.
Anyway, I've been testing out some aspects of the hallucination hypothesis and it's disturbing. I can actually imagine another one of these beings or an "arm" from one reaching out and petting my feet or even the other entities. I've previously have had luck moving some from one area of my body to another by thinking of it. I never knew whether it was responding to my thoughts or I was controlling it, hallucination or not. These aquatic entities may have evolved on er time.
OTOH, I cannot move them off of me completely. I'll feel it swim off, but then it's still there. It swims off again one after another, but the original remains. In other words, it kind of suggests I can definitely hallucinate these creatures or my foot being bandaged or whatever, but whether it's ALL a hallucination is another matter. It's possible there are real signals being misinterpreted by my brain that morph into this aquatic motif.
IT can feel pretty stubborn and changing my body position from sitting to lying can cause abrupt changes (like they go swimming). The more I try to keep one from "playing with my junk," the more persistent it becomes yet losing interest can cause it to lose interest, etc. Hands used to "pop" into existence and getting angry could disrupt a hand into static or vibration instead.
Drinking large amounts of of alcohol have little cognitive disruption on me (I assume it's the high IQ again), but turns the whole thing into vibration again. When I was getting stabbing pains in the groin (possible UTI), this helped immensely. I'm not big on being drunk all the time and I couldn't do it at work.
There's definitely a sensation on top of my head like there's a bug up there. I'll notice it moving in miniature the way one of these things is moving elsewhere. I can't make sense of that at all. At first, I thought there was nothing on my foot, for example, but this thing was just making it seem that way and was actually sending the signals through my brain to simulate it. But moving my hand to where it seems to be would feel a warm sensation in mid-air like it was passing through it. I can't explain that unless my brain can actually figure it all out on auto pilot.
I had a dream my dog that died back in 1998 was laying next to me in bed (8 saw it from above). I woke up and felt a vibration/presence lying next to me in bed. Every time I'd go to bed, I'd feel something jump on the bed and move around like it was looking for a place to sit and eventually ended up 0n one side or the other. I was scared what that walking feeling on the bed was. But then it plopped down beside me like my dog used to do. I'd reach over and "pet" it to see what would happen and I swear it would move up towards my neck and I'd feel like something was licking me....
So, there's plenty of evidence to suggest it's a hallucinatory experience, yet the sensation of one of these crawling up towards me feels real and so does some muscle reactions like it's interfering with my Neural system at times. But that could all be brain damage....
At least I know I'm crazy....
VonMagnum
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The polish I was using (Flitz) is supposedly completely non-toxic. However, I did do some sanding on a few models (not many, but it was very fine) and I wonder about metal dust inhalation or who knows what might have been inside some of those lighters that seemed to have "seeds" in them. A few really stank for that matter. It just seems weird that only hallucination plus a bit of motion off at times was the primary effect. I don't seem dumber (yet). My memory was better in January than now (there is a history of dementia on my mother's side, but only the women seem to get it so far. I think they simply didn't use their brains much. My mother and her mother and her mother's mother were all not big brains to begin with). My older brother does show some memory loss, but I had been taking several herbal supplements along with taking up playing Bejeweled Blitz daily for some brain activity (along with the lighters and home theater building, of course) and that seemed to do the trick. I was sharp as a razor when I was in Florida. I came back with what I think was Covid (again) and a month later this crap started.... My memory feels worse again, but not terrible (I had to look up the name "Flitz" thought which concerns me). Concentration with these sensations going on may be to blame. I'm good at multitasking, but maybe not that good.
joberg
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It could be a mix of many things:
Do you smoke? And if you do, what did you smoke and how young did you start (genuine question, I'm not here to judge, just trying to find answers)
THC in marijuana has increased over the decade: "
Or, as you've mentioned, it's a mix of chemicals that, over the years, have wreaked havoc on your brain. That diagnosis should be accompanied by blood/urine and maybe a bone marrow analysis to see if dangerous metals are in your blood stream.
Do you smoke? And if you do, what did you smoke and how young did you start (genuine question, I'm not here to judge, just trying to find answers)
THC in marijuana has increased over the decade: "
- Increased risk of mental health issues. Cannabis use has been linked to a range of mental health problems, such as depression and social anxiety. People who use cannabis are more likely to develop temporary psychosis (not knowing what is real, hallucinations, and paranoia) and long-lasting mental disorders, including schizophrenia (a type of mental illness where people might see or hear things that aren't there). The association between cannabis and schizophrenia is stronger in people who start using cannabis at an earlier age and use cannabis more frequently.
Or, as you've mentioned, it's a mix of chemicals that, over the years, have wreaked havoc on your brain. That diagnosis should be accompanied by blood/urine and maybe a bone marrow analysis to see if dangerous metals are in your blood stream.
VonMagnum
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No, I don't smoke...anything. I've tried weed maybe 5 times (a few puffs with a friend going to a casino to see if it would help with my shoulder nerve pain a decade ago. I'd did reduce it, but I never felt high). I haven't used any in years. I did use small amounts of Kratom for pains and depression the past few years, but I didn't abuse it (typically half teaspoon to one teaspoon). I never had any issues with it. It feels similar to a Vicodin (which of course you can no longer get for most things because of the overdosing douche bags of the world). In turn, I quit casual drinking, which was a few beers a week, nothing crazy. I haven't used Kratom in over three months for that matter in case it was connected. No difference.
Given the stronger sensation on the left side, I'd say there's a good chance that lesion is related somehow. Given my penchant for road rage, particularly with an ongoing 6 year construction project for a road widening one asked for and no one wants, it's no hard to imagine blowing a capillary. Otherwise, I don't have high blood pressure (home meter) or diabetes (according to to my last blood test a few weeks ago). I am overweight and have neuropathy in my toes that has gone away before below a certain weight.
I have been trying some herbal supplements such as NAC plus Glycine for mitochondrial energy, B1/B12 for nerves, Reparagen for knees, Apigenin to reduce stress and sleep better, Berberine to see if helped weight loss any and a few other vitamin type things. Nothing that suggests lesions or hallucinations.
Given the stronger sensation on the left side, I'd say there's a good chance that lesion is related somehow. Given my penchant for road rage, particularly with an ongoing 6 year construction project for a road widening one asked for and no one wants, it's no hard to imagine blowing a capillary. Otherwise, I don't have high blood pressure (home meter) or diabetes (according to to my last blood test a few weeks ago). I am overweight and have neuropathy in my toes that has gone away before below a certain weight.
I have been trying some herbal supplements such as NAC plus Glycine for mitochondrial energy, B1/B12 for nerves, Reparagen for knees, Apigenin to reduce stress and sleep better, Berberine to see if helped weight loss any and a few other vitamin type things. Nothing that suggests lesions or hallucinations.
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drusselmeyer
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Okay, let's start with the obvious: have you told any of your Drs that you collect old items that may have accumulated infectious elements? Have you mentioned that you work with toxic chemicals when you clean these items?
Start with the obvious before resorting to the unlikely.
At 139, it should be no surprise that your IQ may surpass some of your Drs.
You might want to get tested to exposure to things like ergot or other toxins.
Start with the obvious before resorting to the unlikely.
At 139, it should be no surprise that your IQ may surpass some of your Drs.
You might want to get tested to exposure to things like ergot or other toxins.
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VonMagnum
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I have been under a lot of stress, however. I was forced onto afternoons during Covid and I'm still stuck here and hate working with one of my coworkers. My dad died in 2021 and my mom had a stroke, shoulder tendons snap on one side and needs a hip replaced, but they don't want to operate because her A1C is too high (but she won't follow her insulin program properly). She does have dementia and needs a hearing aid, but won't wear one and lives an hour away from me, but close to my brother who's wife doesn't like my mom and wants her in a nursing home, not their house so my mom is living alone (who in their right mind would want to go to a nursing home? She's 75, not 85). She doesn't want to move to my house and I'm not set up for handicap access.
Ironically, her 87 year old brother has no dementia nor does her 73 old brother. So I'm pretty much stuck worrying about her 24/7. If I hadn't checked on her when she didn't answer the phone, she'd probably be dead now from the stroke. She doesn't even remember having one at this point....
I've had two bouts of formication pulling muscles, 2.5 years of eye pain that it took 13 doctors before an allergy doctor figured out I just needed a mucus thinner and decongestant (ENT couldn't figure it out because there was no infection on the CT scan, even though it showed a fluid build up in my cheek. The allergy doctor proved it by having me snort while hold the right side of my nose. Fluid squirted up into my nose and half the pain disappeared. The ENTs (two of them) never thought to try that.... It's just unbelievable how useless our medical system is.
Then I had Bell's Palsy for no reason they could find, extreme rib cage pain for almost a year they couldn't find that eventually went away on its own. I'm pushing 50. I've got no wife, no family of my own and not even a girlfriend or a good friend. I'm feeling pretty damn stressed and depressed. I've tried every depression pill known to man (a study vindicated me as it turns out NONE of them do a damn thing...but the side effects are real).
That's why I tried Kratom as Vicodin always helped depression, but you can't get it because the government knows what you need better than an adult does for their own body. I used to get Vicodin. I had over 800 pills stored up at one point because I only took half what they prescribed because it was too much. But they dwindled over 8 years time (that's over 2500 days for 800 pills so no, I wasn't abusing them).
Ironically, her 87 year old brother has no dementia nor does her 73 old brother. So I'm pretty much stuck worrying about her 24/7. If I hadn't checked on her when she didn't answer the phone, she'd probably be dead now from the stroke. She doesn't even remember having one at this point....
I've had two bouts of formication pulling muscles, 2.5 years of eye pain that it took 13 doctors before an allergy doctor figured out I just needed a mucus thinner and decongestant (ENT couldn't figure it out because there was no infection on the CT scan, even though it showed a fluid build up in my cheek. The allergy doctor proved it by having me snort while hold the right side of my nose. Fluid squirted up into my nose and half the pain disappeared. The ENTs (two of them) never thought to try that.... It's just unbelievable how useless our medical system is.
Then I had Bell's Palsy for no reason they could find, extreme rib cage pain for almost a year they couldn't find that eventually went away on its own. I'm pushing 50. I've got no wife, no family of my own and not even a girlfriend or a good friend. I'm feeling pretty damn stressed and depressed. I've tried every depression pill known to man (a study vindicated me as it turns out NONE of them do a damn thing...but the side effects are real).
That's why I tried Kratom as Vicodin always helped depression, but you can't get it because the government knows what you need better than an adult does for their own body. I used to get Vicodin. I had over 800 pills stored up at one point because I only took half what they prescribed because it was too much. But they dwindled over 8 years time (that's over 2500 days for 800 pills so no, I wasn't abusing them).
VonMagnum
Sr Member
I haven't even seen a real neurologist yet. My regular doctor is a little butterball that doesn't know too much, IMO. I'll mention the lighters to the neurologist, but given how few I sanded, it just seems like a reach to me.
Ergot:
Convulsions, muscle spasms, vomiting, hallucinations, and a gangrenous pain where the victim's limbs, fingers, toes, and nose …
No, I don't have any of that other than hallucinations.
drusselmeyer
Master Member
Your mileage may vary. This is not the only possibility.
VonMagnum
Sr Member
At least the vampiric squirrels/squid (the children anyway) give me hugs.
They feel soft like squirrels, but structurally more like jellyfish and long like squid, but with little arms that can stretch around and hug. Actually, they can stretch/shape their entire bodies into blanket like structures even. I'll make National Geographic once I prove they exist!
I know... I'll call them GRABOIDS! (Maybe I can get Kevin Bacon to play me in the movie)
They feel soft like squirrels, but structurally more like jellyfish and long like squid, but with little arms that can stretch around and hug. Actually, they can stretch/shape their entire bodies into blanket like structures even. I'll make National Geographic once I prove they exist!
I know... I'll call them GRABOIDS! (Maybe I can get Kevin Bacon to play me in the movie)
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VonMagnum
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Some have suggested a certain smokable might help now that it's legal here. I'm thinking that would quite probably make it worse.
I ordered some Detox for heavy metals pills to try (based on the sanding vintage lighters might have lead or some other metal I might have inhaled in my system) during the Prime Day sale and a new Gen 6 router. The pills were supposed to arrive last Sunday and the router Tuesday. They're still not here. They probably do jack anyway.
So much for 2-day shipping. They don't even give you a free month of Prime anymore. They just offer to refund. Big deal... They obviously don't want me to save $60 on the router.
I ordered some Detox for heavy metals pills to try (based on the sanding vintage lighters might have lead or some other metal I might have inhaled in my system) during the Prime Day sale and a new Gen 6 router. The pills were supposed to arrive last Sunday and the router Tuesday. They're still not here. They probably do jack anyway.
So much for 2-day shipping. They don't even give you a free month of Prime anymore. They just offer to refund. Big deal... They obviously don't want me to save $60 on the router.
VonMagnum
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I had a little chat with someone at Amazon. They refunded the pills (I ordered another brand with two bottles for less supposed to get here Monday). They're sending out another router and both are supposedly no returns so if the others show up I keep them.
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