Well here it goes. And mind you I don’t like doing this on forums. This is a happy place to escape and have fun. And believe me no one believes that more than I do. But to be honest I have hit a wall. And being silent any longer while my ship sinks as not been a good idea. So I must confess I have run out of work, haven’t been able to get hired, projects have fallen through. I attribute most of this to the falling economy. Another issue is (much as I hate to admit) it is my age (I turned 60 on the 5th) and over qualification. Or so I have been told. Then there’s my wife. She is fighting her illness (the bigC) and cannot work either. Without medical insurance this has been a huge drain to say the least. Anyone that lives in LA knows that it cost 3 times as much to live her as anywhere else. Even if I could move I’d have to have money for that. Catch 22. Besides she needs to be close to City of hope. So now I’m hoping to scratch build a bunch of different Star Trek models and auction them off. In addition I’m making the spin off series, “Star Trek Sirius” www.makestarshipsnotwar.com other fan productions have done it off fan donations so I figure why not us too? I’ve run out of money so that’s what I’m going to do. I continue always to search for work. The website is not finished but up and running. All the money will go to making the show and supporting my overhead. I hope to start a store and sell some Star Trek items. Not sure what yet or how but give it time. In addition to all this, you all know I offer building services. I’ll be honest I’m not the cheapest guy in town. I do this for a living, not a side job retired person’s hobby or a young guy living at home making a few extra bucks. But a 35 year vet of the studios who has worked on everything from Ghost Busters to Star Trek. Sometimes pride can kill you and it darn near has me. I always think I’ll pull that endless rabbit out of my hat but sometimes it’s just a plain ole alligator. So I have learned if I tell my friends in the community, “Hey I’m out of work over here!” they won’t ever know. Now you do. I’m not pan handling but beating the bushes for work and donations for my show. Either way or both it will create more income than I have presently and to keep the shop and dream going. All I want to do is work hard and love doing it. Thanks you guys, Steve P.S. If the mods or Art want or pull this as thread I completely understand. There would be no hard feelings at all. This forum has been more than supportive to me and my ambitions.