https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC_-zeWYMYo
It breaks my heart even more to know about this... in an interview in February, he was already trying to send signals that he's not okay.
My closest friend deals with depression and it's totally messed up trying to help.
You hear "I hate my life" or "I wish I would just get hit by a car and end it all"... and you have to figure a way to maneuver that without getting angry "Don't talk like that" or patronizing "You'll be okay... it's not that bad" (cuz to them it's not okay, and it IS that bad).
Damn such a crappy crappy sitch.
That's why when I hear stupid advice from "Pitbull" about suicide saying "Every day above ground is a good day, remember that".... NO. For them it's NOT a good day.
Every day sucks... and telling them it can get better means nothing to them.
Telling them to get psychiatric help often gets "I don't want that crap...they'll just drug me up"
Bah.
Friggin depression.
I have had issues in the past and the one thing that works for me, and works for a lot of people, is running... working out... exertion.
We're hard wired to be anxious... it kept us alive when other animals wanted to kill us. We got to release that anxiety by surviving.
Now we get anxious cuz the bills are due... or you have a crappy work assignment. But we never get to sit over those bills or work after after extreme exertion and release the anxiety... we just go home and watch netflix.
So now, on advice of mental health podcasts, I beat the **** out of my body til I collapse...
let dopamine do the rest.
Sorry if this is rambling... I've been dealing with depression a lot lately (my close friend... not me) and so my minds on a full tank.